march 31

B- cereal
coffee w/ cream
mango

L- tea egg
1 cutie
crepe
fruity snacks
ice cream
biscotti
carrot cake
yam

D- bean sprouts
chicken
pork
duck
apple

Today wasn't that great of a day...emotional eating SUCKS

march 30

B- coffee w/ cream
mango
cereal
biscotti

L- yam
peach
burrito
chips

D- papaya
vegetables
fish
meat

march 29

B- steamed wheat bun w/ dried fruits and nuts
coffee w/ cream

L- apple
yam
two cuties
tea egg

D- caprese sandwich
eggplant parmigiana sandwich
red velvet cupcake
green tea boba
pineapple

march 28

B- steamed wheat bun w/ dried fruits and nuts
coffee

L- peach
2 cuties
yam
tea egg

S- nacho chips

D- vegetables
meat
fish
pineapple

march 27

I had the worst stomachache today. Must have been due to my constant binging Friday and Saturday.

B- coffee w/ cream
steamed bun (wheat- w/ dried berries, nuts fruits)
taro soup
yam

L-beef noodle
vegetables
peach

S- pineapple
yam

D- vegetables
meat (pork and chicken)
soup
apple

march 26

B- tea egg
coffee w/ cream
cutie
egg roll
a little carrot cake

S- instant noodle (haha)

L- peanut butter sandwich
cutie
fruity snacks
goldfish
chocolate
vegetables
pork
carrot cake
banana bread
candy

D- vegetables
meat
fish

counting calories-- not stopping me from eating

I've decided to just write what I eat and no longer approximate calories. I feel that devoting my time to it makes me more stressed out and backfires on me. I feel heavier and binge more when I see that calories/weight is too high. !! I really have to step it up. Time to RESTRICT sugar and stick to healthy foods.
- vegetables
- fruits
- cereal (honey bunches of oats)
- lean meat
- fish
- wheat bread

march 25

B- cereal (160)
coffee (20)
carrot cake and banana bread (250)

L- peanut butter sandwich (250)
2 cuties (80)
wheat thins (220)

D- yam (50)
chicken, vegetables, fish (150)
apple and peanut butter (180)
tea egg (80)

Total Calorie intake- 1140

AND THEN...binge
cereal, cookies, fruity snacks, biscotti, carrot cake, banana bread...

march 24

B- coffee (20)
cereal (180)
carrot cake (150)

L- 2 cuties (80)
peanut butter sandwich (250)
noodles (50)

D- Hide Sushi (200)
Yogurt Land (250)

Total Calorie Intake- 1180

march 23

B- pineapple (60)
coffee (10)
bun (165)

L- peanut butter sandwich (250)
eggplant parmigiana (700)


D- vegetables, fish, meat, miso soup, tofu, mushrooms, cutie (150)
yam (75)
pineappl e(60)

Total Calories- 1470

march 22

B- biscotti (160)
coffee w/ cream (20)
apple (120)

L- peanut butter sandwich (250)
grapes and pineapple (200)
fruity snacks (160)

D- cutie (40)
vegetables, meat, mushrooms (200)
yam (150)
pop tarts (420)

Total Calorie Intake- 1720

march 21

B- cereal (180)
coffee (20)
papaya (150)

L- pineapple and 2 cuties (200)
yam (150)

S- chex mix (210)
fruity snacks (200)
mango (80)
pineapple (80)

D- vegetables, meat, mushrooms (130)
banana bread, cookies, yam, chocolate, coffee (1000+)

Total Calories- almost 3000

march 20

B- coffee w. cream (20)
cereal (180)
yam (40)
banana bread (200)
carrot cake (50)

L- cutie and grapes (80)
vegetables (75)
salmon (80)
pork (100)

S- apple and peanut butter (200)

D- vegetables (75)
soup (150)
fish (45)
mango (80)
yam (90)

Total Calorie Intake- 1465

march 19 (what day? too many, go by dates now)

Current weight- 123.4 lbs

SO, i was at kansas city, missouri the past few days, so i wasn't able to blog. here's the gist of what i ate (not counting calories or maybe estimating, because TOO MANY!)

Thurs, mar. 17

B- banana-bread muffin, scrambled eggs, fruit

L- salad and fruit

D- baby back ribs
creme brulee
brownie and ice cream
spinach salad w/ strawberries
asaparagus

Fri, mar. 18

B- blueberry muffin, scrambled eggs, fruit

L- salad, pasta, bread, chocolate cake, chocolate

D- banana, apple, 2 dominoes cheese pizza, one cheesy bread, two cinnamon sticks, lava cake (yum!)

Sat, mar 19

B- 2 cinnamon sticks
Starbucks caramel latte and birthday cakepop

L- fruit and salad

D- chinese food- beef, vegetables, seafood, green bean soup, taro soup, tea
mango, papaya, cutie

i just ate and ate and life seemed happier. but now i'm going to keep tabs on how much i eat, but won't check my weight that often, because i feel that that is what is hindering my progress and making me binge.

Day 15 (march 16)

B- banana (90)

S- cutie (40)
carrot cake (150)

D-bay cities sandwich (735)
apple (100)

Total Calorie Intake- 1115

Day 14

Weight- 121.8 lbs

B- apple (100)
peanut butter (80)

S- white peach (60)

L- yam (70)
cutie (40)
champagne mango (80)
salmon (75)
mushroom and chicken (80)

D- vegetables and meat (150)
papaya (120)
popsicle (130)
carrot cake (150)

binged again....biscotti, carrot cake, girl scout cookies, ice cream, cereal, fruity snacks, peach

estimated calories - 2000+

:'(

Day 13

Weight- 121 lbs

B- apple (100)
peanut butter (250)
white peach (60)
coffee w/ cream (20)
2 girl scout cookies (140)
yam (50)

L- banana (90)
peanut butter (90)
champagne mango (80)
candy (40)
carrot cake (450)
popsicle (130)
buns (260)

D- salmon (125)
veggies (150)


Total Calorie Intake- 2035

So I've decided to start dieting tomorrow. Like seriously!! No more carbs/sweets. Just fruits, vegetables, and meat. Yes it's true!! And now my goal is 1.5 lbs/week.

Day 12

Day 12

B- danish pastry (150)
eggs (80)
coffee w. cream (20)
pancakes w/ syrup (150)

L- cheeseburger and fries (700)

D- churro (150)
zone bar (210)
bun (170)
yam (70)

Exercise- walking for 4+ hrs (-500)

Total Calorie Intake- 1200

Day 11

Weight: 121.4 lbs

B- coffee w/ cream (20)
2 slices of bread (160)
peanut butter (80)

S- chmpaagne mango (80)
banana (90)

L- yam (75)
beef (75)
veggies (75)
ice cream and walnuts (150)

D- Souplantation (350)

S- zone bar (50)
gold fish (175)
tangerines (40)
chocolate (140)
bar (140)

Total Calorie Intake- 1700

Day 10

Weight- 121.4 lbls (noooooo!)

B- coffee w/ cream (20)
2 slices of bread (160)
peanut butter (70)

L- yam (50)
banana (90)
cutie (40)

D- fried rice (150)
chinese pastry (100)
4 girl scout cookies (280)
candy (20)
zone bar (210)
biscotti (160)
fruit candy (200)
toblerone (70)
ice cream (75)
banana bread (100)
carrot cake (75)
champagne mango (80)
taro bun (170)
walnuts and M&Ms (100)

Total Calorie Intake- 2220

OMG I binged once again. Gotta get on track...if I want to lose all this weight by June 21, average of 1.6 lbs/ week. I can so do this!!!

Day 9

Weight: 119.8 lbs

B- coffee w/ cream (20)
2 slices of bread (160)
peanut butter (80)

L- cup of spinach (150)
banana (90)
tangerine (40)

D- yam (100)
wonton noodle soup (250)
banana bread and ice cream (100)
carrot cake (100)

S- 3 champange mangoes (240)
1 orange (90)
chinese pastry (300)

Total Calorie Intake- 1720

Day 8

Weight- 119.8 lbs (had to check!)

B- coffee w/ cream (20)
slice of bread (80)
peanut butter (45)
carrot cake (75)

L- bagel w/ strawberry cream cheese (400)
banana (90)
cutie (40)

S- taro bun (170)
yam (100)
carrot cake (75)

D- cup of vegetables, egg, and sausage (200)
cherimoya (100)

Exercise- walking an hr (-150)

Total Calorie Intake- 1245

I got the midnight cravings again!! But I feel this time it was around +900 calories.
zone bar (210)
fruity snacks (200)
coffee w/ cream (20)
carrot cake (150)
chinese pastry (200)
2 girl scout cookies (140)

Day 7

Weight: 121. 4 lbs

B- coffee w/ cream (20)
2 slices of bread (80)
peanut butter (80)

L-  ciabatta bread (400)
cutie (40)
banana (90)

D- fried rice (150)
yam (100)
cherimoya (50)

Exercise- walked for hr (-100)

Total Calorie Intake- 910

Week 1 Results

I did really well this week, until today. I binged...
Whatever. I have to be positive or it will be recurring once again. I think I should cut down on yam. I'll have to up my veggie intake though. I have to breathe and try again. Gotta think positive..
Also, I think I'll check my weight every two days instead of one..

Day 6

Current Weight: 121.2 lbs

B- coffee w/ cream (20)
2 slices of bread (160)
peanut butter (80)

S- 2 cuties (80)

L- 1 cup vegetables (100)
white yam (60)

S- banana (90)
white yam (30)

D- beef noodle soup (400)
spinach (30)
carrots (50)
cherimoya (40)

Total Calorie Intake- 1140

I have to be honest- I just went on a binge of over 1000 cal...
:(

Day 5

Current Weight: 121.2 lbs

B- slice of bread (80)
peanut butter (80)
white yam (60)
coffee w/ cream (20)

S- 1 cutie (40)

L- white yam (80)
1 cup of chicken, mushroom, egg, vegetables (250)

S- banana (90)
white yam (30)

D- 1 cup vegetables, chicken, mushroom, egg, beef (200)
white yam (80)
cherimoya (40)
soup w/ vegetable root (100)

Total Calorie Intake- 1150

Day 4

Weight: 120.6 lbs

B- banana (80)
1 slice bread (80)
some peanut butter (80)
coffee w/ cream (20)
banana bread (40)
ate healthier today!! yay~

S- 1 cutie (40)

L- some vegetables, pork chop, noodles, tofu, egg (300)
1 scoop mango ice cream w/ walnuts (150)
candy (20)

D- white yam (120)
fried rice, noodle (300)
taro soup (100)

Total Calorie Intake: 1330

Day 3

Weight- 121.2 lbs (nooooooo!)

B- 1 cup coffee w/ cream (40)
banana bread (170)
sweet potato (70)
2 girl scout cookies (140)
zone bar (210)
cereal (100)
yikes- i had two breakfasts essentially.

L- 1/2 sweet grapefruit (70)
2 slices of bread (160)
short rib (150)
1 tablespoon peanut butter (90)

D- sweet potato (130)
chicken leg (100)
1/2 cup coffee w/ cream (20)
4 girl scout cookies (280)
banana bread (180)

Total Calorie Intake- 1910

I had too many cravings today!!

Day 2

Weight: 121

B- 1/2 cup coffee w/ cream (20)
banana bread (190)
1 girl scout cookie (70)
sweet potato (60)

L- 1 asian pear (100)
vegetables (200)

D- mushroom, vegetables, chicken, fish all in one cup (250)
sweet potato (130)
1/2 cup coffee w/ cream (20)
3 girl scout cookies (210)
Fruity Snacks (200)

Total Calorie Intake- 1390

Girl Scout cookies are sabotaging my diet~~

Day 1

Weight: 122.2 lbs

B- 1/2 cup coffee with cream (20)
red bean bun (180)
sweet potato (60)

L- 1 cup stir-fry vegetables (150)
tangerine (70)

Snack- 4 girl scout cookies (280)
1/2 cup coffee w/  cream (20)

D- vegetables, fish, chicken, mushroom all in one cup (350)
sweet potato (70)
banana (100)

Exercise: walked 45 min (-100)

Total Calorie Intake: 1200 calories

Week 1 Goals

I want to start out on a positive note.
Drink more water.
Eat more slowly.
Stop when I'm full.
Start when I'm hungry.
Slowly avoid eating sweets (which I absolutely love..)

Start of Something New

Hi, everyone. I'm an eighteen-year-old girl quite dissatisfied with my weight. Currently, I weight 123 pounds and my goal is to be 100 pound by the time summer rolls around. Please encourage me through this hard, toiling process. Weight is my number one concern. It takes over my life. My thoughts are consumed by how I look and as a consequence, I lose faith in myself. Recently, I binge quite often and can't control my eating. I may have a disorder but I refuse to admit it. So, I'll take it slowly and try to lose 2lbs/week. I will post what I eat daily and estimate the calories. Hopefully, this blog will help keep me on track. Thanks guys!